Saturday, September 20, 2008

Right now

Here I am, a little tired. Had ATP and coy live firing this last week. Been a long 7 days in camp. And armskote's been quite a terror. Like last Sunday, woke up at 0400 or so, then had live firing. Came back to camp at about 0300, then was inside armskote till 0545. Fell in the platoon at 0645 and then went to bed at 1050. How's that sound...

Right, so every once in a while, I look back and see how far I've progressed, correct?


Busy, especially since I'm still a combat sergeant and an armskote spec at the same time. God has provided me with rather understanding colleagues however. And I know He's been granting me quite some favour with my superiors. He's provided for me that I am able to be diligent and deliver in my armskote responsibilities.

Need to honour God in my normal tasks though. These days I tend to get a bit calculative over my normal platoon duties. Fatigue does not help.

Quite lonely in armskote some days. Feel separated from the world. But been reading a few good Christian books lately, and growing silently.

When I first started to do armskote I felt strongly that God was telling me that some of my most intimate times of worship with Him would be in the armskote, where it's quite cut off from outside. And yes, I have had some wonderful times with God alone in that strong room.


Been spending a little bit more time in CM these days. I think God is leading me deeper into this ministry. I sincerely believe that every ministry is important in God's eyes. That CM is not less important. That God can let anyone start in any ministry and use that as a stepping stone. That CM is not necessarily a stepping stone to a so called "real ministry".

I recall that when I came into CM God specifically showed me my purpose to 2 groups of people. It might sound like a no brainer. But it was the children, and the youth in CM. And I guess that in this season I'll be spending more time with them.

OK that's about it I believe.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Looking forward to ORD

I have 5 months less 1 day as of today. That means 4 months plus. So really looking forward to ORD. Am very thankful for all that God has brought me through in National Service so far. Certainly a maturing experience.

These days I'll be trying to spend more time around with the kids in church. And considering what to do after NS.

Sunday, September 07, 2008

A PrOdUcTiVe 2 days.

Well, I cleared my Final Theory Test for driving, thank God. Was wondering whether I'd be able to, but oh well, I did.

I had a short 7 klick run yesterday, more of a jog. Just to recover some running ability. It was awesome to be at church for the Pri 6 study camp. I may have appeared silent and all, but it really was a blessing to be there. I am very proud of Lowell and Caleb. Of what they've been doing with the kids, spending their time to teach them. Being able to influence them as godly examples.

I benefitted immensely from watching Facing the Giants last night. It almost had me in tears. It made me recall all the dark moments of my life in Sispec, in my current unit. It made me recall how I prayed for my school when I was in JC. It ministered to me deeply.

Well, it was also good to talk to Zhang Qi, Jaslyn, Gavin, Caleb and Lowell. Aaron was asleep already. It was an enjoyable morning doing my QT at 0600. Didn't know people came as early as 0615. Played a little bit of table tennis with Gavin.

Had teachers' meeting, then came home.

And wow, thanks Lord. The weekend was succintly wonderful.

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

My last 5 days

To be fairly honest, it's been a rather unproductive last 5 days... but then it gave me some time (well it forced me actually) to think about some things.

Like my purpose in life, what I am going to do after NS... etc etc.

It's kinda scary how fast one can grow up. I'm 20 already. I know it's not a sudden thing really, but not long ago I was just a JC kid. Yeah, "kid". JC people seem to be "kids" in my mind no. (Especially the males who haven't been through army life). And once I finish my National Service, I'll probably enter the workforce for some time, before going to uni. Then after 3-4 years I'll start to work. Seems rather fast to me.

By the law of averages I would *gulp* have a family in 10-15 years time. Following which at the age of 35-40... okay I'll stop here.

This is the time of the year I start to pray that I can go to the end of year church camps. But I really might be busy. Goodness, I haven't been to church for the last 2 weekends already. And next month I'll be overseas training. Oh well. What can I say.