Thursday, August 30, 2007

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Corporal Foong has been posted to ASLC.

Saturday, August 25, 2007

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Wah. They scold me a lot here. Looking back, the volume of curses, insults and vulgarities flung at me as an individual was quite unprecedented. But managed to remain calm and professional through all the verbal slamming.

Psalm 118:6. The Lord is with me. I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?

Tired and discouraged. But then again, physical muscles grow from over exertion and subsequent growth as a bodily response. How much more spiritual muscle... at least I hope.

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Oh well. Things ain't turning out the way I wanted them to. By the day more things are being flung in my direction. It's a struggle to find God each day. It's a constant battle to seek godliness. Sometimes I don't know who I'm becoming. I simply seem to think differently these days.

My last 10 weeks have changed my perceptions regarding my current life here. Hard work does not always get rewarded. What incentive is there? Things are not as efficient as they are made to seem. People do not care half as much as you'd think they would. Not everyone is treated equally. I feel like a simple statistic performing a function for someone else. Much of what is said is untruth.

So am I getting wiser or pessimistic? Am I growing stronger or simply becoming jaded? I have no idea. I'm evolving though, to put it that way. At the rate I'm going I shall have mutant powers soon.

One thing that still continues to bring me joy is my kids in CM.

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Trust

God seems to be telling me non-stop to trust in Him these few days. Many many many things about trust. Friends and all. Gabriel Low in SISPEC sensing God telling me to "trust him".

To those who still don't know, I didn't get into where I wanted to. Found out on Wednesday. Seems God was preparing me for the news. So it's the real test of whether God is still sovereign in my life, like my kor put it.

Think that my character, personality and perspectives in life are changing. Not quite the same person as a few months back. Things in army, perhaps a microcosm of life, aren't in black and white. It's in grey, with big splotches of black.

Going to pass out of BSLC in 2 weeks. Then will get my posting.

Saturday, August 11, 2007

_For a few of us.

The river has dried up
But the source is still alive
Perhaps... could there be a block upstream?

It's never nice to see a river dead
Lifeless fish and cracked ground
No more people in their little boats paddling in the noon time
Wait... there's still a little trickle

Maybe, just maybe the river is yet to be
Maybe a stronger current will replace the old, slow flow
Just maybe... perhaps... hopefully

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

Few words

My faith and trust in God is being tested.

My character is being tested.

My perceptions and principles are tweaked.

Happy National Day.