Friday, January 27, 2006

Apostolic Passion

Let me take some time to type out some relevant stuff regarding Christian Groups in schools.

Got this stuff from Matthew Chern.

By a person called Floyd McClung.

"Too many people want the fruit of Paul's ministry without paying the price that Paul paid. He died daily. He was crucified with Christ. This strong-willed, opinionated man knew that he must die to self. he knew that in his flesh, he couldn't generate the revelation of Christ. So he died. He abandoned his life. He abandoned himself.

We live in a world of competing passions. If we do not die to self and fill our lives with the consuming passion of the worship of God in the nations, we will end up with other passions. It's possible to deceive ourselves into thinking we have Biblical passions when, in reality, all we have done is to baptize the values of our culture and give them Christian names. We will have chosen apostolic passion only when our hearts are filled with God's desire for his Son to be worshipped in the nations.

May I encourage you, dear friend, to give up your life? I challenge you to pray this prayer: "Lord, be ruthless with me in revealing my selfish ambition and my lack of willingness to die to myself."

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A young man in bible school offered to help David Wilkerson years ago when he was ministering on the streets of New York City. Wilkerson asked him how much time he spent in prayer. The young student estimated about 20 minutes a day. Wilkerson told him, "Go back for a month and pray two hours a day, every day for 30 days. When you've done that, come back. Come back, and I might consider turning you loose on the streets where there is murder, rape, violence and daner... If I sent you out now on 20 minutes a day, i'd be sending a soldier into battle withou any weapons, and you would get killed.""

Sometimes I wonder why God put me in a school with such hard ground. An environment where it just doesn't seem right to talk about God. Christians abound who are not too ready to step out in their faith. People are in bondage. Every other guy I know seems to be in ponography or talks about immoral things. There is little unity. I cannot recall a single person who is proud to be in this school. If people have passions here, it is either about the latest fashion or the latest soccer news or the latest computer game or the latest pop group. Other people starting groups elsewhere seem to have softer ground. Christian schools and Christian-friendly schools. But then I really am in no position to speak on this. I'm just a servant in my Lord's house.

At the end of the day I everything goes by faith. Starting a Christian group... I sincerely believe that it's not me or my core group who leads this army. It's God. We're just servants playing a small part. God will work on the larger areas. Like spiritual strongholds and attacks of the evil one. Somehow God still involves us, though I know He'd have absolutely no problem sending in a few legions of angels and taking the school without us. All we have to do is pray and spread His word. And God will do the great work.

I have observed so many Christians who simply pray, but do not spread God's word. Who speak in tongues in the morning but can spend the day with vulgarities flowing from the mouth. Just as the word says in James 3, saltwater and spring water cannot flow from the same source. As the people of God, how is it possible that we can pray for God to annoint our schools but yet shut up when it comes to sharing His word when we are with our friends? You ask how we can share His word? Do you not speak with friends each day?- pray for oppurtunities to share and if you really mean it and ask God for it non-stop, I guarantee you that the chances will come! Is your face (which by the way, is only temporal) worth so much that it would deny you the chance to share Christ with your friends? Is Jesus Christ worth more to you than all you have in this world?

And if the answer is yes, to the last question, then nothing should stop you from sharing Christ wherever you go. You don't have to wait for a calling. Just go and get it done. The Great Commission is already enough.

I thank him that enabled me, even Christ Jesus our Lord, for that he counted me faithful, appointing me to his service - 1 Timothy 1:12

I challenge all who read this. Are you sick enough of the hold of the devil on the world around you enough to share God's word? Are you tired enough of satan playing with your friends' lives to pray (and I mean pray with tears and power, not a 5-second, responsibility-fulfilling, conscience-saving prayer) for your schools?

Christ is coming again. Will we be ready to give an account of what we have done to our King if the rapture (presuming it's pre-trib) comes tomorrow?

P.S. No offence to all who read. Tai Yong does not apologize for being a Jesus-freak.

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Quick update

Only got a bit of time to type this before I go study again. (yes, it might make me sound like a boring person, but I'm just disciplining myself for God's glory- and I'm not trying to boast here).

Last few days was an up and down experience. Saturday was especially interesting. Had some issues in ODAC (morning) again. (This blog's not a flaming-people site, so I won't put the details here- But can ask me personally). So bad that I just ended up crying (literally. Yes, I do cry) to God. Nobody saw it. Just God and I.

That afternoon, God showed me He was in control. Gave me the oppurtunity to share Christ with my taxi-driver on the way to church (don't usually take taxis, but was late for YPM). Kind of interesting. There I was sitting at the back, praying. Somehow I felt a boldness to share God with the guy. But then I weighed the odds (my Chinese is pretty un-fluent, to put it politely- and I was tired after that morn). Then I decided not to share. And then, the driver just turned around and started asking me bout Christianity (told him I was going to church). And so I asked him whether he wanted to here the story of Christ.

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And he did. Shared Christ to him in my broken Chinese. Truly, God used me when I was weak, in my weaker language to share Him. I even got his hp no. Samson helped me to pass it to the good people over at Hokkien Service. Praise God!

Monday and Tuesday. Just normal school days. Thank God that I'm before time in schoolwork now. Hasn't happened since my Lower Sec days, I believe.

Today was ODAC. Ended at 8+. J1s were great... Got to know a couple of Christians amongst them.

Still praying for God to invade my school. I know that God will provide. Does not Mark 11:24 say that : "I tell you the truth. Everything that you ask for in prayer- believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." ?(of course it also goes on to say that I'm to forgive everyone I have anything against.) This is one thing that I'm just totally trusting God for. My friends and I here don't have to wait for a specific sign. My Lord already commissioned His disciples in the Great Commission.


...Jesus drew near and said to them, "I have been given all authority in heaven and on earth.
Go, then, to all peoples everywhere and make them my disciples: baptize them in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, and teach them to obey everything I have commanded you. And I will be with you always, to the end of the age."


-Mark 28:18-20

But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes upon you, and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.

-Acts 1:8

So there we have it. A good thing's that I know a few other YPMers who are working on setting up some sort of Christian group in their schools. Got bros Caleb Lim and James Ow Yong in SAJC and ACJC and also got Jia En over at Anglican High.

All who read, please keep me in prayer, if you have the time. Thanks!

Thursday, January 12, 2006

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Had C Maths and GP test today. Was ok, I think.

If I don't get too many careless mistakes, I should score well for C Maths- To all those who have no idea what this means, it will mean that I would have passed my first C maths test since last April.

GP teachers have a supernatural ability to zoom into fallacies. I suspect that they enjoy it. Enjoy sniffing out the blood of their prey. Enjoy the thrill of zooming in to the kill. I suspect that each time they set their blood red pens to paper they laugh their evil laughs and whoop with glee in anticipation of their student's sufferings. And when their students cry their tears of blood the teachers happily collect these blood-drops in their buckets and go off to fill their red pens with more blood.

Heehee. Naw. Actually I don't mean that. I quite like the way GP teachers pick out fallacies. For it builds us up as people. Teaches us to take criticism. Teaches us how to avoid mistakes and construct a full-proof, logical statement.

And, I thank God that I'm actually beginning to study. It takes a lot of discipline to do this don't-touch-the-computer thing. (I've got exactly 14 minutes from this moment till I force myself to get off the internet). But it will pay off. By God's grace.

I think that God took away this study-thing from me for a reason. Taught me that I have to thank God for everything He's given me. Now I must honour God with my studies again.

My student life has been interesting. I have been at the top of the class and at the bottom of the class. I have known what it is like to be praised in front of my peers and what it has been like to be scolded in public (though I admit that when my friends and I are told to keep quiet by anyone on stage, it's usually more of a hilarious affair- and if you're wondering, my classmates and I know no shame...). I have experienced being looked up to- one of the divine-few who soar high above the danger of failing exams, and yet I have experienced being among the mortals who struggle just to keep afloat. I have understood the exultation of doing well in a national exam (PSLE) and getting far below what I expected (O'levels), and believe me, when I got my O's I almost cried. I have at one time loved the education system and saw all its advantages but now see its limitations and understand that life is the most comprehensive module I can ever take.

And just as I am about to write some more I realise that it is exactly 10:08 and I have used the computer for exactly 1 hour and the next time I can use it is next week.

Poof*. I'm gone.

Monday, January 09, 2006

Quick Update

A very very quick update on how things've been going for me.

I've changed my lifestyle. Now I do what matters most first. I have completely abandoned the old lifestyle of coming home from school or church and sitting down at the computer to use the internet. Now I keep internet usage to within 2 times a week, max 1 hr a time.

I've been waking up a half hour earlier everyday to do my QT- which is something like 10 minutes of praying for people and ministries (Childrens' min, the youth, AJC) and then about 15 minutes of word study and 5 minutes of prayer again.

I've been concentrating in class. I find that somehow my attitude this year is different from the last. Last year I was proud. Last year I disdained lectures and tutorials. Now I know I must be humble and learn what I can. Last year I kept questioning the education system. This year I waste no time on that- no point, I have to get my studies right this year.

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Lord, you see these offerings. An offering to you. I am studying hard for you, Lord. You made me realise in the past month how much harder I have to study for your glory. For I am just a steward of studies right now. You made me realise that if I want to offer my whole life to you, I have to be a good steward of what I already have before you put even more under my stewardship. For everything I have in this world. Money, possessions, yes, even my physical being. All these are under my stewardship.

And Lord, thank you for blessing me with a parallel bible from Amelia who got it from Matthew!

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I fasted for AJC from 6a.m. to 6p.m. last Friday. Prayed for the school. I pray by faith. (And I know by faith that God will answer this prayer.) That the entire atmosphere in this school will be changed. That hundreds upon hundreds of AJCians will turn to Christ. That all who already bear His name will step out in faith to proclaim it.

And speaking of proclaiming it, I must thank God for answering a prayer of mine some time back for oppurtunities to witness.

My Lord didn't just give me one or two.

He gave me the whole class (minus those who went for orientation)- so that was like 14, I think.

It happened during GP tutorial.

We were doing presentations on religion. Had to explain them on the spot. My group got Christianity. Guess who went out to present.

I went through the fall of Adam to the death of Christ and how He died for our sins. I may not have done too excellent a job, but I know God was with me and that I had good prayer support(I smsed Samson, Caleb, Lowell, Joseph and Glenn to pray for me). But I am just joyful that God gave me the chance to share and I wasn't afraid. I sincerely believe that it is the power of the Holy Spirit that convicts people. Not my words. I can give the best presentation but if the Spirit of God is not there, my words shall come to naught.

All for now. Sleeping. Then waking up to do QT and then study. 300 + more days of discipline. Then shall my A's pass. I shall do this with gladness, for I know I am doing it to honour God.

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Pressure

Been feeling extremely pressured (it's only the 2nd day of school, for goodness sake!)

There's studying for God, ODAC activities (at least 3 times a week), Christian group (which will require some time to set up) . I really seek God on all this. Am I putting commiting to too much Lord?

Be still and know that I am God...
-Psalm 46:10

Ah God. I have no idea how things will work out. Certain issues are too sensitive to type on this blog. You alone know what exactly is going on... you know the many things in school which make me worry. But Lord, I trust in you. For I know that my God will provide. I will be still and know that you are God... and while I'm at it, give me joy and peace.

Yes, my God will provide. I know that full well... God already told me that this year is going to be tough- even tougher than the last. But He already told me that He'd be with me.