Friday, December 30, 2005

The art of relaxation

Heard it many times.

Never really managed to put it to practice until lately.

I went swimming this morning. Haven't been swimming for almost 6 months. Last time I touched the pool waters was in June, Lifesaving Course.

Swam the 16 laps warm-up routine Uncle Patrick always made us do. In 20 minutes! Man, during Lifesaving I could do it under 11. And I already felt tired after that.

Swam 20 more laps, freestyle. Wonderful to feel the good pain in those muscles.

And then, miracle of miracles... I decided to relax! Just to enjoy. Just to go to the side of the pool and be content with closing my eyes and resting my head at the side of the pool. To hear the "waves" of the swimming pool hitting the pool side. To enjoy the bits of sunlight creeping pass my eyelids. To thank God that I could find the time to swim a bit, relax a bit.

That was a really wonderful morning, Lord. Thank you!

If you really think about it, life is just a journey. After the whole thing, at the end of this long day which we call life, all those who believe will make it to heaven. And then all that we ever did on this earth will not in the least compare to our heavenly inheritance. So often we do things because we want to achieve something. And after we have reached that something, we want to achieve something else.

So terribly rarely do we sit down to enjoy what we have achieved. Then life passes us by and we look behind us, wishing that we could live that life again. But nobody can live life again. You live life now. And you must enjoy each and every passing moment, for that is how God intended it. He came to give abundant life, whereas the evil one comes only to kill, to steal and to destroy.

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Another year

Another year approaches.

In AJ, we'll be setting up Christian fellowship/ cell/ ministry (there's no name yet) afresh next year. Personally, I believe that it'll be an uphill battle. Secular school. The more organized a cell, the easier it is for it to be perscecuted. But then again, if our Daddy in heaven watches over us, who have we to fear?

I have this not-so-closely-related relative who has 4th stage cancer. I asked my parents to bring me along on the next visit so I can share Christ with her and her family. But I don't really know her. So it's going to be a bit touchy (if we even manage to arrange a date to visit her, and she lets us). But if you really think about it, hell is worse than death. The possibility of offending the person is a small risk to take, in comparison with the possible returns of a soul.

Picture this.

A rainy day, with a fog thick enough that you can't see past 50m. 10m in front of you you see a man. He's drunk and he's walking on the railway track. You hear the piercing sound of the train's horn getting louder.

And the man's still staggering down that track. Happily. Beer bottle in hand. Drunk. Lost in his happy world.

Would you not as a simple human being shout and scream and wave and try to get the man off the track? Or if the train was still some distance away, and you were strong enough, would you not push the guy of the track? I know I would at least shout to tell the man to get off.

For if the man does not get off, he will surely die.

And surely, the risk of the man being irritated with you, turning you down, even chasing you away with violent fists, of him being offended with you. This risk. Would you not take it? To save a life?

And perpetual torture of the soul is far worse than death. And we all know that.

Why then, Lord, is it so hard?

Give me boldness to fearlessly proclaim your word, Lord God. But I must remember that it is your Spirit, and not my lips which will melt hearts of stone. For I am just a humble servant declaring his King's word.

Thursday, December 22, 2005

Church camps ended. Kayaking now.

Yup, my 2 church camps just ended.

Childrens' camp was wonderful. I think I didn't do too good a job as a main teacher. Thank God my assistant teacher Phoebe (but I think she was really doing the main job throughout) covered for me all the time I wasn't around. I received a lot from the Lord too. Learnt so much. But I won't post it up just yet.

YPM camp was pretty physically exhausting. Thank God I got through. I think my mental exhaustion (after the ODAC Instructor Camp) got in the way of me thinking clearly or leading effectively during some parts of the camp. I still have a long way to go as far as leadership is concerned. But I thank my Lord that He gave me a terrific group. Zero problems. Excellent attitude. God-seeking hearts. And a wonderful assistant leader (Sandy) who once again covered up a lot for the fatigued, ever-busy leader. And a good group mentor too. (Caleb Koh). He took note of some areas where I could improve and told me in an encouraging manner, even though I was obviously under-performing.

Also I thank my Lord for all the wonderful bros and sis throughout these 2 camps. Caleb Lim, Joseph Tiew, Samson Hu, Daniel Ong, Daniel Yim, Daniel Li, Gideon, Jia En, Phoebe, Sandy, Siew Ho, Guang Hao, Dickson, Wang Xian, Joshua Ho, James Ow Yong, Gabriel Lee, Samuel Chao... oh dear, the list could go on forever.

21 to 24 December is my kayaking 3-star course. I'm an okay kayakist. Couldn't paddle straight once, but now I'm pretty ok. All the rolls and all I haven't mastered yet, though. Don't think I'll go for assessment though. So that'll make me a 2.5 star kayakist.

Seeking God daily now.

I realised that for the past year I have not been a faithful steward of my studies. Not that I copy or anything... sometimes I just don't do my work. And being pretty thick skinned, it doesn't hurt my pride to tell the teacher straight... and they just shake their heads. Nope. My attitude was all wrong last year. This year it'll change. I will study hard. I will be a faithful steward of my studies. I will do what matters first.

I have to get my studies right in the year to come.

So help me God.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Fast one

Fast one.

I'll make an update within 5 minutes.

Just back from an ODAC camp. Quite refreshing. An instructorship camp. Sports climbing yesterday morn. Then navigated Singapore urban area for 15 klick with an approx 15 kg pack yesterday. Today was an approx. 18 klick kayaking expedition I think.

Lots more outdoor stuff next week. The kayaking 3 star's been packed into 4 solid days, so I'll probably be a little sun-kissed by then.

Childrens' camp last week was simply wonderful. God's annointing upon the place. The way He put lives in my hands for me to touch and the way He sent lives to touch me. People like Joseph and Caleb and Daniel Li, Daniel Ong, Daniel Yim, James Ow Yong, Jon Ho, Jia En, Phoebe, Gilbert.... the list of bros and sis go on.

Next camp's tomorrow. I'm really really looking forward to it. Yet I wonder if I am ready for it. But right now I just see it that I'm going and I'm gonna let my Lord handle all the rest. Partly becauuse I'm super tired.

Done in 5 minutes.

Monday, December 05, 2005

Going for Childrens' Camp

Going for Childrens' Camp tomorrow morn!

Couldn't go for camp briefing because of Standard Chartered Run 10 klick (which by the way, we did at so slow a pace that I didn't even come close to panting- easier than 2.4 sprint!!).

Didn't go for tonight's meeting in church because my mom forbade me. And it's my fault, being 17 already and piling up so much homework along with camps and stuff. Like my mom put it, "You take on so many camps and activities. So you've got to make sacrifices." True.

So tomorrow morn I'll make it early to camp.


Your humble servant is here.

Do whatever you want Lord.

Refine me, use me. Change me and use me to change others.

Here am I Lord. Not worthy to even untie your sandals. But only say the word, and it will be done.