Sunday, November 27, 2005

church camp

I shall be going to the upcoming camps with many questions in mind, amidst a tight schedule and a mind not quite sure what to expect.

Like when you enter the principal's office because he wants to see you. Which I've done only once in my life so far, and no, not telling why he wanted to see me.

My schedule?

Next Tues (29 Nov) odac

Wed- odac

Thursday- service learning

Friday- odac (ASEAN Scholars' Orientation, infamously known by the acronym ASO- which sounds like...)

Saturady- Morning SAT test, evening YPM

Sunday- Standard Chartered 10 km run (think prob go there and be a slow poke. Fatso like me cannot run too fast. haha.)

Monday- 3 star kayaking

Tuesday (6 December)- Childrens' Camp begins. 4 days 3 nights of fun and challenges and God's loving kindness.

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Friday (9 December)- Childrens' Camp ends

Saturday- YPM

Sunday- 3-star kayaking

Monday, Tuesday - much needed break chiong* homework

Wednesday (14 December)- YPM Rezolution Camp

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Saturday (17 December)- Camp breaks

Sunday (18 December)- 3 star kayaking

After that, unknown.

yeap.

Cool hor?

Being busy is sometimes good. Gives you no time for the luxury of worry.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

I'm going!

I'm going Childrens' Camp this year!

Signed up for this with faith that there'd be no ODAC activity. In the end ODAC got cock up in planning. Haha.

A glance back at this year.

Start of the year was pretty good. I walked close to God. Even though I didn't go YPM for first half a year, up till June, I enjoyed God's close presence. I got my lifeguard cert... which was why I didn't go YPM. Culture shock too in AJ. Girls and all. (Girls you ask? Well, I was in a guys' school for 10 whole years. Didn't really realize girls existed. Apart from the normal stuff we can't do in a mixed school- like taking off our shirts in the middle of the field, or changing in class, or the practical jokes in boys' schools, some too disgusting to mention (but fun!!) there was the worst part. TALKING to a girl. Now that took me some time to get used to!)

Then somehow after June, there was a roller-coaster period. Back to God and then turning my own way. Back to God then turning my own way.

From maybe October onwards till now, it's been pretty bad. Either you could say I've been thirsting for God or you could say that I'm far from God. Not sure which one myself. Probably the latter.

So, are church camps meant to be a booster jab for a spiritually ailing man such as I?

NO!

If God is the God of only church camps, I would rather be struck dead.

I'm serious.

I have faith that God is not the God of only church camps, and I'm seeking Him desperately now.

Of course half my life I've been seeking God desperately.

What more to say?

Oh yeah, thanks for listening.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

From "God's Daily Promises" an online devotional I subscribe to. (It's free, and it's pretty good, so me being me...)

Forty matryrs "History knows them as the 40 martyrs of Sebaste. They were soldiers in the famed Twelfth Legion of Rome's imperial army, around A.D. 320.

One day the captain informed his troops that Emperor Licinius had sent down an edict commanding all soldiers to offer a sacrifice to his pagan god. Forty of the soldiers were followers of Christ, and they refused. The emperor decided to make an example of the soldiers, so he marched them onto a frozen lake and stripped them of their clothes. "Renounce your God and you will be spared from death," he told them. Not one man came forward. Throughout the night the men stayed together, singing their song of victory: "Forty Martyrs for Christ."

When morning came, 39 of the men had frozen to death. The one survivor recanted his confession of faith. The officer in charge that night had been so moved by the scene that during his watch he'd come to Jesus, so he broke rank and walked out onto the ice. Stripping his clothes he openly confessed his faith in Christ. He refused to renounce his new faith. When the ordeal was over, the Roman soldiers carried 40 frozen men off of the ice.

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Would I be the 40th soldier Lord?

Right now I fear that my faith is running low.

Or would I have the courage of the 39 men and 1 captain?

Sunday, November 06, 2005

In the process

In the process of searching for God.

God, what do you want me to do?

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Went FCBC today. Caleb found it good. I found it ok.

Then went back to church and talked with Samson and Amelia. Was pretty good, I feel. Thanks Samson and Amelia!

And so my life continues, a search for God. For answers to tough questions.

And it goes on

and on

and on.