Saturday, May 28, 2005

Break.

Be patient and wait for the LORD to act; don't be worried about those who prosper or those who succeed in their evil plans. Don't give in to worry or anger; it only leads to trouble.

Psalms 37:7-8

I need a break, Lord.

Friday, May 27, 2005

Aimless rambling

Peace... is not the absence of trouble, fear, worries and hard times.

Peace... is the presence of God.

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Sometimes wonder how many people actually read this blog more than once.

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Need some close friends here in JC. REal close friends. Already I know so many people. But I pray for some close friends in JC.

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He who has God and everything else has no more than he who has God and nothing else at all

Thursday, May 26, 2005

What do you call it?

What do you call it when you've got so much brain activity going on and so many thoughts whizzing around in your head but when you open your mouth to try to describe it you can't piece everything together.

Ah yes. Diarrhoea in the brain, constipation in the mouth.

So much has been going on as of late, yet I don't know what to say.

Main thing is, I've been learning so much, being humbled so much by my God, being touched so much by the people around me (and prayerfully, touching the lives of others, even if it's just a small tiny weeny little bit). Currently in an extremely busy part of my life.

Sheesh.

So little time, so much to do.

I remember fondly my primary school days. Playing soccer 3-4 times a day in Primary 5,6. Once before morning assembly, once during recess, once during lunch break, once after school.

Back then, so much time, so little to do.

Used to be a real guai* person back then. Then things changed in upper sec. Used to get in trouble with my English and Chem teacher back in secondary school. Lotsa trouble. Now, most people in JC think I am, but the thing is, I'm just well, trying hard (and being successful) at staying out of trouble.

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Time whizzes past. The sea of faces around me changes unceasingly. I don't always feel comfortable where I am, always think about "the good ol'days", always struggle through the present.

Then the present becomes "the good ol'days" and before I know it, it has slipped through my hands. How fleeting time is.

Better appreciate where I am now.

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My thoughts are pretty disorganized right now. Need a break. Seriously need some rest. Tired and loaded mentally, physically, spiritually, emotionally. Thank God for putting family members and friends around me to really help me through it all.

so tired

so tired

tired of being tired

tired of being tired of being tired.

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Diarrhoea in the brain, constipation in the mouth.

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

A long weekend.

Had a long weekend. Vesak day and all. Had lotsa uncompleted work before this weekend, which is still uncompleted. Spent the weekend relaxing. Been running around non-stop. Needed an urgent break.

Only 3 real days of school next week. Tues, Wed, Thurs. Friday is some funny occasion by my school called "Be-yourself-day", where we're supposed to "be-ourselves" by doing stuff like taking part in soccer matches, basketball and blah blah blah. Which is pretty weird since AJCians do that stuff every other day, if not everyday, and if we were really given a choice to "be-ourselves", we'd really rather not go to school.

Then the June holidays start. But of course, most of it is taken up already.

My spiritual walk?

Been spending time with God. Average of a half hour a day. Not really much, considering the fact that I can spend hours on end playing some funny free games from the internet. (Hey, I made 2 million+ from 1000 in gold in that game!). Looking forward to returning to YPM (Young People's Ministry) after I pass my lifesaving.

Read some of my old, handwritten journals last night (I'm still writing in them). Realised how God has been working in my life all this while. I mean, I always knew that, but sometimes it takes some time before the full magnitude of what God has done sinks in and you go, "Wow".

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Supposed to finish up my work for tonight. But I don't exactly feel like doing so, to be truly honest. Oh well, lemme see what I can do. Then I'll think of some ways to cover up the undone work tomorrow (sheesh, I'm getting good at that).

Schedule for tomorrow :

0550-0730 Wake up and ask God for strength to take on yet another new day. Stretch, eat breakfast, take 72 to school. Attempt to sleep on bus on way to school, but probably end up watching some Anime show on TVmobile. Reach school. Meet up with friends.

0730-1255 Lectures, tutorials and all. Learning to pay attention, simply because it's difficult for the moment but pays of later.

1255-1700 Go to Asian Civilization Musuem for some forum by MRT. Representing school with one other guy for this one. Have no idea whatsoever what it's going to be about.

1700-1900 Make my way to church for discipleship with Samson (my discipler), Caleb Lim, Lowell and Joseph. Da pou* dinner on the way.

1900-2030 Discipleship. Doing Romans now.

2030-2200 Make my way home on 55. Samson stays in church, Caleb and Lowell are driven home by Lowell's dad. Joseph's dad drives him home. Don't wanna trouble my dad. He'd have to go out of the way to get to church and back.

2200-2300 Pack bag for tomorrow, quickly complete some essential homework. Get ready to sleep.

2300-2330 Talk and then pray with parents. Listen to my bro's MP3 player for around 10 mins.

2330-2400 Thank God for giving me strength to survive yet another day and sleep

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Saturday, May 21, 2005

Tired

tootiredtoleavespacesinbetweenwordsmustrestnow

Thursday, May 19, 2005

Beauty

Many things I'd like to say about certain people (or group of people), but just to be on the safe side, I'll quote straight from scripture.


Beauty in a woman without good judgment is like a gold ring in a pig's snout.
-Proverbs 11:22 [GNB]


As a jewel of gold in a swine's snout, so is a fair woman which is without discretion.
-Proverbs 11:22 [KJV]

Thought:
So many nice-looking people around. So many nice people around. But how many God-fearing men and women today can be found?

(Sometimes I find myself being a wee bit too skeptical and cynical for comfort. But while the world celebrates life in all its ungodly ugliness, which of course to them is beauty, I often wonder what my Lord would have to say.)

Running after God.

Monday, May 16, 2005

Consecration

Just back from a 24 hour ODAC camp (started on Friday night, after school), which included a trek at Bukit Timah, covering the Dairy Farm loop and all. Got like 3 hours of sleep -_-. Then went for the lifesaving(lifeguard) course yesterday night. Got scolded for lousy plunges, slow swimming and all. Came to a point where I just swam slowly and kept doing the pushups as punishment for missing the sprint times.

But I guess the fatigue's gone with sleep last night and a good 3 hours this afternoon. (anyway, I guess my bro's NS experience is much tougher than what I'm going through).

Studying for History Common Test tomorrow.

June holidays are coming soon. Looking forward to an expedition to Gunung Belumut and Kayaking Star 2 plus kayaking as backup for a charity swim. And I'll be taking my lifesaving test in the 3rd week of June. heee. Still got project work and homework to do on top of that. Caleb (Lim) asked me to do logistics with him for Creative Arts Camp, which is a children's camp by my church. Prayin' bout that. Seems pretty impossible right now, but oh well, if God wants me to go, He'll make a way.

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Something happened today which I'd deem pivotal. Consecration. Speaker today (Uncle Ee Ming, if I got the spelling right) gave an altar call for consecration to the Lord. Consecration and obedience to the extent of martydom if it be so. Just felt the Spirit of God telling me to go forward. I do not know what exactly God has in mind, just that He told me to go forward.

And I did.

I have no idea what this is going to lead to; when this decision will come back to me I do not know. 5 years later, 10 years later, 40 years later? But I just sense that one day, God is going to remind me of this decision. It might be something infinitesimally small, or something great, or something that requires great pain and sacrifice, or something that is going to cause the world to hate me, or maybe even some tiny, seemingly insignificant role in another's ministry.

But God will call me, I believe. May not mean full time missionary work or ministry (hopefully not, Lord, from my current, limited human perspective). And the thing is, I have said that I will go.

I take no pride in the fact that God has planned for me to participate in His work. Only humbleness, that such a mere mortal like me could have a role in my Lord's kingdom. And I pray that pride will not take over. For if God does not raise me up to do His work, He will raise up another. And if there is no other person, He will raise up a stone.

But for now, it's studying for the Lord's glory.

Study, kayak, rockclimb, boulder, swim, run, trek. And oh yeah, soccer and b. ball (which I'm still kinda bad at)

Thursday, May 12, 2005

My life

Nah, not gonna be a looooooooooong story about my entire life.

Just been thinking a little bit about my 17 years of existence.

Things have been changing. 10 years back, I could never have imagined the things that transpired in the last 10 years.

And who knows what might happen in the next 10? Who knows, but God.

The past 3 years or so of my walk with Christ has been amazing. The things that the Lord has done in the life of a sinner like me. Yes, it might sound cliched, but it's true. The fact that God has forgiven me from all my sins is truly amazing to me. Some of the sins I have against God are so disgusting that I wouldn't even mention them here.

And yet here I stand, knowing how much grace God has put in my life. Everything I have is the result of what God, my family, my mentors and my friends have invested in me.

The more I grow closer to God, the more I know I lack in Christ-likeness. The wiser I become, the more I know how unwise I am. It's a strange thing.

Do not be wise in your own eyes. Fear the Lord and shun evil - Proverbs 3:7

Past few days have been tiring. Been bouldering (climbing rock wall sideways, which can actually be harder than doing the vertical rockwall sometimes), running with friends from ODAC (Sheng Long, Chee Yong, Guan Jie, Teck Hao...etc) and tackling my common tests. Pray for me, all my bretheren in Christ. Really need your prayers.

Fighting to keep my eyelids open even as I type this.

One quote. A lesson I learnt today. Often heard, but it's just so true.

If you keep judging others, you have no time to love them.

... Nite Nite.

School again tomorrow.

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Tai Yong, Man (pronounced marn) of the match

Played soccer today.

Man of the match.

I scored a spectacular goal. The most memorable one of the day.

I was being marked by 3 opposing team members (I think). There was just me and one other guy on my side. Wacked the ball instinctively the moment I got hold of it. Sent it flying straight into the goal post.

Bea-u-tiful.

Except for one thing.

It was an own goal.

Tai Yong. Man of the match. trumpet*. 20th century fox music.

Well, at least I scored a goal. :)

Monday, May 09, 2005

The 2nd post... what else can I call it?

Hi all

So this is my nice little blog.

Hopefully I'll start posting serious messages soon enough.

But I don't feel in the mood to post anything serious right now.

So I'm just trying to make the 2nd post look a little longer.

lalalalala

2 common tests just over today. Didn't go too well. But yeah, I just praise God in all things. Thank God that I didn't panic throughout both tests, probably because I'm used to tests back in my ol' school Montfort where I could go through a whole paper, only feel confident of getting a quarter or less correct and still feel happy after that (but back then I didn't really study).

Those were the days. Then my A maths teacher would come into class the week after the test and prove that the paper was totally a piece of cake by showing us how a 10-step question could be done in a step or two.

Montfort, Montfort, Montfort. 10 years. Sometimes you only appreciate things when they're gone.

So I should start appreciating AJ now, I guess.

God help me.

(Hey, I actually managed to write something serious!!!!) clap clap clap*

Saturday, May 07, 2005

The first post

This first post consists of twelve words.

And yes, I'm feeling bored.